I know when it was
After our fight
When you hung up angry
And I drove into the countryside
Going nowhere
Feet bare on the pedals
Feet bare on the metal
I stopped at the shop
With my hair down
And bought a pack
Smoking out the window
Music blaring
All the way home

No wait,
I remember the last time
I was sitting in the lawn chair
Legs bare
Burnt
Holding your hand subversively
And trying to pretend
My heart wasn't beating in my chest
It had been so long it burnt my lungs
I was hoping
You didn't notice